Another Day in the Life of Lo

     So I went camping this last week and it was just the small escape I needed. I went with a group of people and had a blast just chilling near the river. I invited a friend and was super excited she was able to come but was super disappointed that she drank too much too fast and was absent (or absent minded) most of the time. Bummer!! The whole next day we pretty much chilled at the lake and fished the whole time. I was in dire need of getting out of town and this was exactly what I needed. I'm glad the guy I'm dating (?) invited me, it was a good time...I hope to have more awesome times and adventures this summer!!

    So there is this website called "The Dirty" which is a website where you post pictures of a person and talk mad shit about them. I just found out today that one of my friends is on the website, and they are really mean and saying horrible things about her. She's at work right now and doesn't know what it says, but I know she'll be really hurt when she reads it. Some of the things that they state are true (or twisted partial truths) but I just don't understand why people feel the need to go out of their way to be mean, vindictive, or negative towards another person. It's a waste of time and energy and just feeds the negativity and continues the cycle. I wish there was a way to take it off, this girl has gone through a lot, and doesn't need to be reminded of dumb shit that doesn't matter or is any one's business.

     I had someone recently point some things out to me that I don't necessarily like. I don't think I've ever thought about it (until it was pointed out to me) and need to find a way to...not (I guess). It was brought to my attention that I explain myself (like if someone points something out or teases me, I feel defensive and that I need to explain myself) and that I like attention (which I guess I sort of do). I think it's all stuff that my personality adapted from things I went through growing up...I've never had great self esteem and was teased a lot by my brother and stuff like that about my height, weight, looks. I guess I like feeling validated that people like my personality or find me attractive...even when I'm not interested. That is an unhealthy habit to have and can get you in to trouble if you're involved with some one...so it's on my list of things to work on i guess. I'm sure that's why I feel the need to explain myself, even though I don't have to...You don't KNOW ME, you don't know my life!! Hahaha

     Anywho....just something that's been on my mind lately. Until next time...