Cultus Lake <3
I'm really digging the guy I've been dating. He's nice, gentlemanly, very handsome :), has a good sense of humor, very affectionate, he has an uncanny way of making me laugh, he's constantly complimenting me and doting on me, and we have a lot in common...it's almost eery lol. We both have issues with relationships, we're both high energy, like to be active/doing something, we over think, we both have a problem with indulging too much with drinking (which is "nice" b/c we both understand the situation), we both want to live a healthier life style...it's just so odd but is also pretty cool. The only bummer is that I really like being around him and spending time with him but he's planning on moving to Bend sometime in the near future to start over there...which we've talked about since day one.
Even though I can see myself living there eventually I have school to finish, and I have about 2 years left here. There is a college there but it's almost college suicide to transfer this far in (lose credits, get set back) and IF I did I would have to change majors, again. However, I've always had a very impulsive side to me and most of the time the decisions I make that way turn out for the best. Take going to Western for example. I applied here because I'd heard a little about it, liked that it was a smaller university, and it was a magnet for the major I wanted at the time (sounds crazy stupid I know). I wanted a change and was going to eventually transfer and knew I didn't want to go to PSU. I applied in April and started there the following September...and look where it lead me. I love my life a zillion times more then I ever did in Portland. I've grown, matured, met some amazing people, and have had a blast out here in the valley over the last 3 years. Does that make me crazy? Maybe? Am I seriously contemplating moving out there? Yeah. Will I? Maybe...when would be the real question. I have a lot to consider and think about. I'm an adult and this is my life we're talking about here...Plus it doesn't help that my cousin Jenny in Bend/Sunriver offered to let me stay with her for as long as I would need to get my self on my own two feet...
One thing about my week in Bend...I drank. A lot. It kind-of worried me at one point. I know I like to drink but I need to draw the line. I need to have a life that isn't compromised by alcohol. I want to be healthier over all. I want to exercise, I don't want my decisions to be influenced by my drinking, I want to be smarter and more successful...I have some thinking and reevaluating to do before the summer ends.
I'm going to hit the water tomorrow with my guy and my cousins, should be fun. I've got a lot to look forward to for the rest of this summer :) My guy is going to take me to the Warped Tour, I'm going camping at Pelton Dam, I'm going to Sublime with Rome with a bunch of friends, I have some friends coming back to town, I plan to do a lot more hiking, swimming, tanning, and adventures before school starts again. Even though life isn't perfect and I might have a lot on my mind, my life is pretty dang amazing and I am a very blessed lady. I love my life and everyone and everything in it.
